Week 49 was a good week. A fantastic week! It was much needed too!
It was the first week since last October that I had finally gotten below the 7 lb mark. That meant I was officially less than 7 lbs away from goal. 5.2 lbs to be exact! That’s all I needed to lose and I’d be at Lifetime.
Why am I talking in past tense? Yes, it was last weekend so it is technically in the past. But it’s also not true anymore. I swear, I am never going to get to Lifetime. Last week I didn’t track one bit and as usual when I don’t track, I made some very unhealthy choices.
It all started with my family’s birthday gathering. We were having breakfast items – biscuits and gravy, egg casserole and bacon. Yumm! Biscuits and gravy is seriously one of my favorite meals. I used to make it all the time. I love me some sausage gravy. On this side of the family, we also eat cocoa gravy. Oh so good! This day we were having both. Oh my!
I told myself to just eat one biscuit. I could have 1/4 cup of sausage gravy on one half and 1/4 cup of cocoa gravy on the other. I even took a measuring cup with me. I figured the biscuits and gravy part of the meal would be the highest in points. I started to pre-track. I was going to be good. I only had 5.2 lbs to go. I could do this!
And then I got there and there were 2 large plates/trays of already cooked bacon sitting out on the counter. All will power left me. My cousins fixed me a drink, a screwdriver, so many points but oh so good. I fixed myself a large plate of food and ate it all.
Then I went back for seconds of each. So bad!
The next day I met up with a couple friends for dinner. We ate at an Italian restaurant and for the most part I was ok. I chose salmon with asparagus, zucchini and mushrooms for dinner. I did have a glass of wine and ate a couple pieces of bread but overall, it wasn’t terrible.
But then I got home and wanted something sweet. I found some left over ice cream my nephew hadn’t eaten from a week or so prior and ate peanut butter out of the jar.
While at work Tuesday, I was so so tired. I turned to candy. A lot of candy.
I did this pretty much every day for the remainder of the week.
Friday, my parents invited me over for dinner – steak and baked potato. Yumm! We usually also have corn on the cob. They didn’t have any so I offered to stop at the store and pick some up. Big mistake. I also picked up something to drink and something for dessert. The drink wasn’t so bad. But the dessert was chocolate chip cookies and vanilla bean ice cream. Can you say ice cream sandwiches?!
I don’t even need to tell you how good this was. It was probably also close to 30 points. On top of eating a much too big steak, baked potato, corn on the cob and having 3 stronger than the average drinks (I point this out because that means more points).
The next morning I had another ice cream sandwich for breakfast. BREAKFAST! I have a problem.
I did follow it up with Beer Yoga which is a pretty good work out. I have only done it twice but man have I felt it on the next day both times. Insane!
I’m not going to shame myself any more than I already have but I will say I continued to eat junk food the rest of the weekend. So much junk food!
Needless to say I am no longer only 5.2 lbs away from Lifetime. Last week alone I gained 7 lbs. That’s right, 7! This is the most I have ever gained in a single week before. The fact that I have gained and lost small amounts like this so many times now is hilarious. It no longer bothers me to have a gain like this, because I know that it will come right back off. I suppose this is a good thing. But I really do need to stop having weeks like this. To have a bad day every once in a while is one thing. But an entire week is not needed. And it is keeping me from my goal.
My goal. What exactly is my goal these days? That’s a good question. I recently saw this meme (is that what they’re called?) on FB.
This really spoke to me. I think this is why I have been where I am these last few months. It’s simple, just as I said in my last post, I’m fine with where I am. My desire to change is not greater than my desire to stay the same. Hence, why I haven’t gotten to Lifetime yet. There is one reason and one reason only why I would want to reach Lifetime at this point and it has nothing to do with my weight.
I don’t want to pay anymore!!
I’ve mentioned this a few times. I’m not sure about on here but I have said it. I can’t quit WW because the weight would come back and fast. This I know. But I don’t have a strong desire to lose another 5-10 lbs either. You would think with summer right around the corner I would, but no. It’s just not there.
I did learn today that I can see a doctor about setting a new Lifetime goal. This is a possibility for me. It sort of feels like cheating to me. So I’ll think about it a little more. I’m glad it is an option though.
In the meantime, it’s time to be on track again. I have chicken and veggies about to go in the oven and chicken tortilla soup for the crockpot tomorrow. Both are low point dishes. Let’s lose this 7 lbs…again! lol
Just for fun, here’s a picture of my nephew and I with jello Easter eggs. =) This year my family changed up the food and I was not loving the idea. However, seeing the jello Easter eggs did make me feel better. Traditions are traditions for a reason people!