The last couple of weeks have been interesting. I can say that I am officially in my house. Yay!
It’s been exciting times to say the least. I closed a little over a week ago, moved yesterday and cleaned out my old apartment today. I’m a homeowner now. Yikes!
But we’re not here to talk about that. You probably want to know how I’m doing on my WW weight loss journey. Not too good to tell you the truth.
I know. =(
Let me take you back a couple of weeks. Week 27 was awesome! I weighed in but wasn’t able to go to the meeting. My Dad and I went to the races that weekend and I didn’t have time to attend. I did have time to go weigh in though. I don’t remember my exact weight loss for that week but I do remember that my total weight loss was 39.2 lbs making me 8.2 lbs away from goal. Awesome right?! I thought so!
I gave myself a pass that weekend so that I can drink and eat junk food at the races and not feel guilty. I figured I had been doing so good, Saturday and Sunday were part of two different WW weeks and you have to live a little. I’ve said this before but it’s true. You aren’t going to be perfect and stay within your allotted points every single day for the rest of your life. It’s ok to give in once in a while. Just as long as you are able to pull yourself back together.
Not this time at least. =(
So over this same weekend I hurt my back. It literally happened as I was getting out of my car and getting in to my Dad’s to cross the street to the race. I felt it. Not sure what I did but I sure did something. I told my Dad immediately. As the day went on, it began to hurt more and more. I still enjoyed the race though. Didn’t let it slow me down one bit. That may have been a mistake though. Not sure. When I got home that night and went to bed, I tried to sleep on my back, which I never do, and I tried to not move as much as possible. It must have worked because I woke up Sunday morning feeling a lot better.
However, by the end of Sunday, my back was worse than it had been the day before. I thought to myself, ok sleep the same way you did last night and all will be good tomorrow morning. Boy was I wrong. I woke up Monday in so much pain. I got out of bed and couldn’t take a single step. Not. A. Single. One. The pain was unbearable. Somehow I got back in to bed and I called my Mom. She and my sister both came over and took care of me for the day. I obviously did not go in to work that day. My sister gave me a muscle relaxer and my Mom brought me a heating pad and cooling packs. She also brought breakfast and junk food. Of course I ate everything. It was a sick day but not a stomach sick day so that I couldn’t eat. Sick days are freebie days didn’t you know. That also meant this was Day 3 of me not tracking or making good decisions in the food department.
This led to Tuesday and Wednesday not being good and Thursday was my closing day on the house. So of course there was celebrating with both food and alcohol. So many points! Before I knew it the weekend pass I had given myself turned in to a week long pass. So I told myself ok, take the week, get back on track Sunday. But I still had lots of leftovers from Friday and Saturday that I didn’t want to go to waste. So I ate them.
Monday. I’ll get back on track Monday.
Sunday was the start of WW Week 28. Remember I didn’t attend Week 27’s meeting because of the race. Week 28 I completely forgot about. This is the first time since starting Weight Watchers that I forgot about a meeting. I remember looking at my phone seeing the time say 9:10 and then remember that hey, my meeting started 10 minutes ago. Damn! I could have at least went and weighed in. But I wasn’t in the mood. So I didn’t. I told myself I would go the following Saturday. It was the last day of Week 28 but it would still count.
I also told myself to track this next week. Monday I did well. Tuesday too…up until the evening. Tuesday night I ended up eating two dinners, yes 2 and a bunch of candy. It was Halloween! I had hoped to pass out all of the candy that I bought, which was only one bag. It was my first time being able to pass out candy from my own home. I wasn’t going to pass it up. My plan was to eat 2 pieces of candy. I had enough points to do so. I had been very good most of the day. Any remaining candy was going to work the next day so that others can eat it. This did not happen. Oh no, it did not. The rest of the week didn’t turn out so well either.
Week 27 and Week 28 were not good weeks for me. Remember I had gone the entire two weeks of eating poorly. I made bad decision after bad decision. Freedom is not always a good thing. Not for people who don’t know how to eat healthy. I know what to do but when I do not follow structure, I don’t do as I should. I really don’t want to track anything, calories, points, anything for the rest of my life but the more that I do and especially when I don’t, the more that I realize I may need to. I’m the type of person who likes to follow rules, guidelines. Without, well, I go a little crazy. Between Week 27’s weigh in and Week 28’s weight in, I gained 4.8 lbs. Wowza!
I went in the opposite direction and in a big way.
To top it off, I was unable to again attend the meeting. This day was moving day in to my house. There just wasn’t time. I told myself that I would get back on track the next day, today, the first day of Week 29. I would attend a meeting and get back on track. Did I? No. =(
I have two alarms that go off every day. The first one is at 6am and the second is at 7am. I turned them both off and stayed in bed. I didn’t wake up until 8:30. The Sunday meeting starts at 9 and I now live 30 minutes away. There was no way I was going to make it in time.
I had bought donuts and pizza for those that helped me moved the previous day. Both of which I have leftovers. I ate the last of the donuts for breakfast this morning, had Sonic for lunch, Mexican with my parents for dinner and lots of Halloween candy as well as a large, thick cookie in between. So many points!
Dinner was too much. Too, too much. I have leftovers for probably 3 more meals. I should throw it all away because I’m sure it’s high in points. But that would be so wasteful. Besides I haven’t done in grocery shopping since being in the house and am not quite sure what I have that I can fix for lunch or dinner tomorrow. I can at least track the Mexican food. That I can do and should do. I have got to get back on track.
My goal was to be at my Lifetime goal by the end of November. As of the weekend of the 21-22nd of October I was 8.2 lbs away from this goal. The end was in sight. It was totally doable. Now that I have set myself back a few weeks, that goal is no longer attainable. This doesn’t mean that I won’t reach my Lifetime Goal because I will. It just won’t be by the end of November. I don’t see any reason why I can’t reach it by the end of December though. Before the year is over I should be at my Weight Goal or at least within a pound of it. I will!
So tomorrow I will get back on track. I will start making healthier choices again and tracking everything I eat or drink, no matter if it’s healthy or not. It won’t be easy since I’ve had the taste of freedom for so long. But I can do it. I have faith in myself.