I’m not quite sure how to begin this week.
I’ve hit a set back. I get within 10 lbs of goal, so close, it’s within reach and then I go and blow it. Last week I had a gain of 3 lbs and this week a gain of around 4. I’ve doubled what I need to lose now.
I knew this was going to happen. I wasn’t tracking and I was eating very poorly. I mean bad. Really bad. Here is just a couple examples for you.
Neither of these meals are from holiday related events. One was at the New Dinner Theater with my Aunt and Uncle. (My aunt will read this. She is a loyal subscriber. Love her! This is not your fault. Please don’t think it is. It’s just an example of me making poor choices.) I could have chosen smaller size portions. Larger portions of the veggies and maybe skipped one of the starches. But no. I did not. The show was hilarious though. One of the best, if not the best, I have seen to date. I loved it and my time with family.
The second picture is a dinner I picked up on the way home one night. I had worked late, didn’t meal plan and wasn’t in the mood to cook. I also couldn’t decide where I wanted to go – Taco Bell or Sonic. So I got both. That’s right. I got a Jr. double cheeseburger and fry at Sonic then went next door to Taco Bell and picked up 2 tacos. I ate all of it! Plus, I had a few pieces of chocolate for dessert. I don’t even want to know how many points all of that was. My guess is around 40 for the food and who knows how much, maybe another 20-30, for the chocolate. That was just one meal; doesn’t count all that I had ate earlier in the day.
I told you that I’ve been bad.
I wasn’t lying.
It’s not like time stops when days or weeks like this happen. I’m no longer just 7 lbs away. I have back tracked and have to take the 7 lbs that I gained off, again, to get back to the original 7 lbs that I still needed to lose. Ugh!
This will be my 3rd time taking off these same 7 lbs. I don’t want for there to be a 4th time.
When I started Weight Watchers, I was feeling terrible. I had gained so much weight in such a short amount of time and it was affecting my health. Some of those same things that I felt 8 months ago, I felt again this last week. I was:
- clothes feeling tight
- breathing heavy
- hard to get up off the couch
- uncomfortable to sleep at night
I didn’t think I would ever feel those things again. Yet, I am. Yes, still am. I have had heart burn most of the day. It’s not good.
I’ve been doing a little reflecting. When I first started, the weight came off rather easy. The first 15 lbs especially, the 2nd 15 wasn’t much worse. It’s these last 15 that I’ve been struggling with. What’s the difference? Well, I was strict at the beginning. I did the program. I tracked every single thing I ate. I planned accordingly. If I ran out of points, I stopped eating. I remember saying time and time again, what is the point of being in Weight Watchers if you weren’t going to follow the program. When I did what I was supposed to do, I lost weight.
It’s only been these last few months when I have tracked less and less or fell off the wagon and not tracked at all, that I’ve been struggling. I wasn’t following the program.
I went to 2 meetings today. In the first one, I broke down. It was too emotional for me and I’m a crier. It was a low point for me. But in a way it was good. Everyone was so supportive. We’ve all been there. I put too much pressure on myself. Yes, I had hoped to be at Lifetime around Thanksgiving. Yes, that was adjusted to around the beginning of the New Year. No, it’s not happening. But I will get there. As long as I do, does it matter how long it takes me? Not really. Other than, it’s still costing me money. lol
After my usual Sunday meeting, I thought I would give myself some extra encouragement and attend my old meeting as well. I got a few good ideas while I was there. One – perky pencils! I think I’m going to go buy some and start using them myself. One of the girls I’ve become friends with there said that she is going to start giving herself one for each day that she tracks. I am loving this idea. At least for this first month. I miss the perky pencils. If I look back in my book, I think I received one each week for the first 5 months. These were the successful months.
If you don’t remember, my old WW leader passed out perky pencil stickers to everyone who tracked to the best of their ability at least 5 out of the 7 days of the week. I tracked everything! Therefore, I always got a perky pencil sticker. =)
The second idea was to have the right attitude. I’ve been hard on myself lately and haven’t had the best attitude. This has lead me to continue making poor decisions. Change my attitude, set a goal and I will see success!!
The third idea is the Blue Dot Challenge. I didn’t participate the first time around because, well, I wasn’t tracking when this took place. I’ve declared January my own personal Blue Dot Challenge. My goal – to see a blue dot for every day in January. What does this mean? In order to receive a blue dot, you first have to track. Then you have to stay within the healthy range of points. This range is designated as 10 below your daily points and 5 above. For me, my daily points is 23 so my healthy point range is 13-28. If I stay within this range, I will receive a blue dot. I am going to strive to receive a blue dot every day in January.
So today is the last day of the year. It’s the first day of a new week. It’s time for a new beginning. I’m going to follow the program as I did when I first started. I’m going to track everything that I eat. I’m going to plan my meals. I’m going to drink more water. I’m going to get my perky pencils because I have the right attitude and I’m going to see a blue dot each and every day this month. I’m going to lose these last 15 lbs and keep them off! I can do this!!