As I’ve told you before, I have been struggling lately with this ever lasting weight loss journey. To be so close to Goal and now so far away as really messed with my head. The week before last I posted on my WW group’s Facebook page, (Yes! We have a closed group FB page. It’s awesome! We can post openly about struggles, recipes, successes and continue to be supportive of each other outside of our 30 minutes meeting time each week.) I’ve been thinking about quitting. Not that I was ok with gaining all of my lost weight back, but that I’m tired of paying $45 each month to continue using the program when I’m not actually using it.
Immediately, I got a huge response and all were so supportive with various suggestions on what I can do to kick start my motivation or changes things up. Some even offered to try various exercises with me. They really are awesome!
Then when I was at my meeting, our leader, Janalee, was the person who weighed me in. She said to just try tracking 3 days. Don’t worry if it’s not all week. Just 3 days. You know, I thought of her saying that all week long.
I told her straight up that I wouldn’t be tracking that day. You see, I had a family gathering that afternoon. I’m weak when it comes to our family gatherings. I always have been. I don’t know what it is about certain people. Some, I can stand my ground and others, I just can’t. When I’m doing good, like the first 6 months I was on WW, I’m strong. But since I’ve been rocky the last 7 months, I’m not nearly as strong. When I’m strong, I can resist more. I can stay within my points better. When I’m weak, yes, weak, I’m more likely to make poor choices. I have plenty of times.
Since I’ve not been on track the last couple of months, I knew I was not going to be able to be good around my family. I know myself and it wasn’t happening. But I also knew that the same wouldn’t be for Monday. So, come Monday I decided to track. I tracked everything I ate or drank, except for water, for most of the week, Monday – Friday’s lunch, to be exact. I shared everything on our FB page.
Friday night my parents came over for dinner. I had just the night before bought a new grill and they joined me as I broke it in. Our dinner wasn’t all that high in points. Not really. Bacon wrapped chicken that was yes, stuffed with cheese, but most of the cheese melted out while on the grill, bacon wrapped asparagus and salad. I didn’t track but would estimate 7-8 points. What did me in was the ciders I was drinking. Those things are not low in points. Not at all!
For the most part though, I think I was ok. It was a good night and I had tracked the previous 4 days. One night wasn’t going to hurt me.
Then the next day, I had lunch with a friend at a favorite restaurant. My meal was low in points seeing as how it was salmon and veggies. I assume they use oil and there was a small amount of grated cheese on top of the salmon, but otherwise, it would was zero points. What put me way over the top was the bread dipped in oil and the two berry-tinis that I had. Oh my, they were delicious!
But I can assume they were also a lot of points. Drinks!
Later on that day I was on not-tracking mode for sure. I had 2 pieces of pizza at my Mom’s house for dinner. Ok, ok, not that bad. But I followed that up with Cold Stone ice cream. Oh so many points.
None the less, I was still down 3.6 lbs this week. It doesn’t wipe away all the weight that I gained but it’s a step. Plus, it’s the first loss that I’ve had in weeks. Hopefully, just hopefully, I’ll have a loss next week and the week after too. =)